If she only knew.

I have not updated this blog for several reasons. Most I choose not to share. But I am truly in love with this lady but she does not feel the same way.  Last year she came to me.  Then again this year.  I wish I knew what to say to her to explain just exactly how I feel.  I find her amazing and beautiful and everything best in a woman.  And I have wanted to hold her for so long.  This may never be meant to be but I just cannot walk away so easily. She has not completely pulled away.  If she wanted, she could completely avoid me.  So I feel there is a slight chance however small it might be.

A Long Time Ago.

A long time ago I met a girl,  I did not know then that she would be someone I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.  I haven't even told her this yet.  She probably wouldn't be happy if she even knew I was typing this right now. But I feel the need to make certain things known.  First she and I are great friends. We have no ties to each other to bind us. At least not yet. Fate hasn't yet stepped in and swayed things my direction but neither has Fate chosen to remove those feelings I want shared.  When and if that happens then I will count my blessings and take a firm hold of this girl and ask her if she will be mine. I've rushed headlong into relationships before. I was lucky in love but never so fortunate to meet someone like this girl. I guess that each new day will bring on a new challenge that I must face. So with that said I only want that she sleeps well and hopefully dreams of me. I know what dreams may come and mine are of her.  Goodnight my Barb. I shall sleep holding you tight and looking forward to once again wrapping my arms around you.